The color of a broken heart...

They asked me, if red is the color of love
what is the color of a broken heart?
shades of gray, I said... I wasn’t wrong.
Those stars don’t want to be reached...
Its been exactly five days
Since I looked up at the sky and hated you
I faked some joy and said -I have a bad feeling-
you laughed and told me to be a little more optimistic.
And tomorrow
there might not be a reason for me to smile.
Sitting on the corner of my bed
holding on to the blanket
...yes, I am afraid.
This heart doesn’t want to be healed.
Its been two weeks since the last time I felt at home
My world up-side down, my mind a complete wreck, my body shaking
and all I had to do was lean a little closer
so you could make the monsters go away.
And tomorrow
there might not be a place for me to hide
Looking at the dirty mirror
analyzing the shape of my lips
the silhouette of my body
...yes, I am scared.
These memories don’t want to be forgotten.
Its been a week since you looked me in the eyes
dropped your arms to the side and said am sorry
I covered my ears, shut my eyes, bit my lips..
I’ve seen promises be broken a thousand times before.
And tomorrow
there might not be a shoulder for me to lean on
Listening to whatever song plays on the radio
Disgusted by the fact that they all talk about love
that they all remind me of you
...yes, I am lost.
That person doesn’t want to be loved.
Its been 13 hours since the fact that I am a fool hit me.
it was a smart mistake, I took the blame for everything
This is not the first nor the last time we say good-bye..
I turned around to run back to you
but wasn’t brave enough.
And tomorrow
there might not be a someone for me to believe in,
pretending that am ok as I try to scratch you away
inventing a happy ending to keep the heart on its place
...yes, I am alone.
But it will be in two more days
forever
until I meet you again.
Am back with what I got...
a fool for what I lost
for there are stars that you cant reach,
there are hearts that you cant heal,
there are things you cant forget...
there are people you cant love...
its a beautiful game
the game of life.

...I just don’t want to play anymore.